Looking at my last post so much has changed.

I am no longer babysitting kids at home.
Kids are in public school and I work a full time job.
The house is on the market and we are praying for God's will.
Angel is in Peru for 6 months.
Jonathan is in college and working in a pizza shop.
Going to a different church "Generation".

I just turned 40!! So I am going to join the 3 blessings a day challenge my sister Loren has shared with me.

Starting today....

1- New job and start Monday
2- Home with my hubby all day alone and just staying in jammies and watching T.V.
3- Cooked yummy food for the family early.

Thanking God for a good day.

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Today I had a moment, I sat on the floor and put some shoes on 2 of the little girls I babysit and I couldn't get up. My energy was so low and everything went still. I looked around and realized that I have been so blessed to stay home with my kids and care for other little ones whose mommies are working. Even thou my life is a constant go and my house is full of toys and messes. I am thankful.

Today I will smile....
Today I will rejoice .....
Today I will enjoy the noise and the mess.

Yes, being a stay home mom is not an easy task but one many don't have the privilege of doing. 

I am thankful for my husband that supports me as I stay home and figure out side jobs and ways to help bring money or save money. 
I am thankful for my kids who don't mind other kids going into their space and touching or taking. 
I am thankful for how God brings to me the right kids at the right time. 

So as I finish this post with a house full of children all I can do is be Thankful for today, for life and joy in Christ.


Jessie 

" Manna Grace" One thousand gifts devotional

Friday and oh how thankful I am for this day. It has been a long week with sick little ones, juggling school and house chores and life in the midst of it all.

I wake to a dirty kitchen.....an assignment given to my 2 youngest with the the supervison on my 19 year old. BUT the dishes are high, the counters have food and all I can do is wait for them to wake so they can start what they didn't do last night.

So today I read pages 110-112 in my small cute devotional "One thousand gift by Ann Voskamp" a sweet gift my close and special friend Jeanine gifted me for my birthday.

Manna the very thing we don't like to get....a sick relative, a hard unfair job, depression, anxiety or financial struggles and sometime death.

She shares how a family she knows buries their 2nd son of a genetic disease and how the dad response was...."Just that maybe....maybe you don't want to change the story, because you don't know what the different ending holds."

" Maybe....I guess....it's accepting there are things we simple don't understand. But HE does."

This make me think of my life and how so many times I have wanted things to change but have prayed for Gods will and they have stayed the same....now I see that I don't want to change the ending and I want it to be Gods way.

So as I start my Friday with little ones, homeschooling and house chores....I STOP and thank God for today for all of it....illness, jobs, mental illness and financial struggles that all keep me on my knees and looking up!

Manna Grace

Jessie

The Best Yes by Lysa Terkerust

Life is different....but I am full and very blessed.
I stay home with my children and home school.
I babysit 3 kids full time with some children coming part time as needed.
I started a new business Itworks.....wraptonetuck.myitworks.com

But life is good and God is teaching me about what is my BEST YES.

I am on session 3 of this study and it is a blessing to me one whom thinks that can do it all.
I am learning to trust God in all ways and to know what to say Yes to and what to wait on,
I have to set my sights on growing my faith and not fearing the failures or errors I will make.
I need to pray and apply thought to my decisions and trust God with the outcome.

As a stay home mom and one who is working from home and juggling so many hats I need to trust.

The daily stuff that seem more like distractions are the bigger assignments in my life.
Homeschooling , cleaning, cooking and caring for these little ones.
Those are the unnoticed places of service that unlock the riches of wisdom.

This study is teaching this to me.

"Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom" Psalm 90:12

July 2014 was the beginning of wake up call .....we are not promised tomorrow so today make it your best day and make all your decisions count for His glory.

I pray daily just for that.....wisdom with my time and to love with all my heart and soul.

Pray with me for just this.

Jessie

God answers prayer as we seek HIS will!!

Yesterday was a nerve wrecking day......we waiting to hear from the doctors regarding Cory's scans and the wait was misreable. 

It was 5:30 before they arrive to tell us the news.

As we waited our minds were all over the place....we anticipated the worst and perpared ourselves for it. But they arrived and the news was better than good......

The chemo is working and his cancer has shrunk by 50% which is amazing!!

So we give God the Glory....not oils, or meds, or chemo but prayers and faith and acceptance of what His will is for Cory's life.

As a sister of the wife who has the 3 kids I am thanking God for more time and more memories. 

Praising God for how Good he is Always!

Glory to God in the highest!!!

Jessie

Returning after a long break and life completely changing....

MONDAY, OCTOBER 27, 2014

Returning after a long break and life completely changing....

Ever wake up and look at your life and think " How is it that I made it here?"

I do and did today....a house full of young kids which I babysit , staying home with my kids to homeschool, physically God has healed me from extreme pain for over 7 years and after a breakdown I am finally stable.

Why?????? Because God is good in the midst of the storm he is there holding our hand, loving us and guiding us to HIM. 

Well my family is in the midst of another storm....not financially but health wise. We are walking along with my baby sister and her husband thru cancer. An illness I never thought we would see so early on in our life. With babies to raise and young children, the last thing in your mind is cancer. Yet God again in his sovereign way is using this to grow us closer to Him each day. 

We trust, pray, and bare our faces and souls in His word that is living water and hope for the despair. 

So this is what make me come to writing again, because when you have something this big in your life God wants us to share it and open our lives and hearts to others so he can be glorified. 

Today I am thankful for so much and just like my brother in law who is my little brother sings. 

Live like there is no tomorrow.......because we don't know what tomorrow holds and we need to enjoy today....

Love our husband, children, mothers, fathers, sisters and brothers. Help a friend, call a friend, Hug and show Gods goodness today.

And who knows but that you have come to your ROYAL POSITION for such a time as THIS???

Esther 4:14

Look around and see what is God doing in your life and asking you to step into????

I know I am.

Sister in the Word,

Jessie 

Inspired after seeing Moms Night Out

Wednesday night I took mom to see Moms Night Out with my sister. It was her Mother's Day gift from us. The story was cute and one I was able to relate with. The past couple of months I have been recovering from burn out. I quit my full time job and came home and started to babysit 4 young kids to provide and homeschool my 4 kids. 

I really didn't understand why I was so tired so fatigue and exhausted. My body ached , headaches everyday and exhaustion. 

There was time for a change and I knew I needed to find out what the cause for my fatigue.

In the movie there was a scene that touched me.... It was when the biker told her that she was Enough and that she was the only one holding those high expectations on herself. 

So true for me....I am the one that wants PERFECTION...

Perfect Clean house, smooth schedule, good dinners , stay in shape etc....

But in reality does it matter? Who is watching me be this perfect and cares about it so much but me !

So know I take it a day at a time ...evaluation the cause of my obsession? And making sure I am doing my job in excellency but not perfection...

I will journal about my day and my thoughts...my Highs and Lows and how God is transforming me into His image. 

With Love,

Jessie